starting over

A year ago, I made the "big move" from my comfortable and complacent life in northern california to unfamiliar waters in New York; where I knew not a single soul but my own. For most, this major life transition would be a scary one, however I was not scared but ready to grab life by its horns and conquer it (whatever 'it' is). Conquering 'it' is not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Hence, why I believe the reasons why most are scared to start over again. My start is still in progress, but I am loving mostly every minute of it. Although, creating new friendships is the hardest part of this whole transition. Hopefully, this local friend drought will end shortly!

Through it all, I have no regrets about starting my life over in the Big Apple, besides regrets hinder progression. And these days I am all about self progression and enjoying the life that God has given me!

Peace out!!!

Pressing Forward

   Earlier this week, I was feeling a bit down. Not down and out, but unmotivated; to do even the simplest tasks around the home, work and school.  As I listened to music that typically got my blood circulating, I pondered the question, "What motivates me?" Then I thought, "What is motivation?"  

While Webster's Dictionary, defines motivation as a noun of the root word motivate, which means to provide with a motive; actuate.  I now question what is my motive in life. While I was an adolescent, I had my mom and other influential people in my ear and sight that were motivating guides. As those motivating guides were not always words of hope, but words of doubts- I only strive harder to accomplish goals. Now in my mid-twenties, I realized that all of which I now had achieved was not for me, but for others. Whether it was to please my family or to prove to others that I can overcome their doubts.  

As I am now learning to live for myself, I have entered a new game of Life.  I am learning that is okay to set my own rules and goals. As my rules and goals may change, it is okay, because I am not trying to please anyone but myself.  And once we all realize that, one's own happiness is the most important-(motive), that's all the motivation we need.  My family, friends, and haters are just the gas in the engine when I am running low on fuel.